Thursday, July 31, 2003

It is so hard to keep track of the days anymore. We had my six-week check-up yesterday, but couldn’t do my pap, as I am still too sore. Got you weighed, however and you are just less than 10 pounds! Am amazed at how quickly you are growing. Right now you are sleeping on my chest. So far you’ve slept enough for me to get my chores for the day done! Yippee! Am looking into Baby Sign Language classes for you, Daddy and me. I can’t wait to start communicating with you. It’s got to be so frustrating to be confined to only one “word”. You can’t tell me what’s wrong, only that something is making you unhappy. Then I have to try to figure it out. Sometimes, I get so frustrated with you and I know it’s not your fault…

I need to get some food in me.

Tuesday, July 29, 2003

You must be growing again. You’ve spent all day wanting to nurse and cuddle. I put you in the cradle and you sleep for maybe half an hour and then you’re fussing and unhappy. You’ll only sleep happily (and you even giggle) on my chest. So, we haven’t been out of the house today except for the short walk we took the dog on. Having the dog home this week has kinda sucked. Daddy is working at the Lyceum this week, loading out 1776 and loading in Cotton Patch Gospel. Maya’s been depressed and walking with you strapped to me has been a little stressful. Maya is still not so great at restraining herself when she sees a cat or something gets her excited. So, I dread walking her and lead her on short walks, which just makes her unhappy and restless.

Your head is so soft. I just want to pet you all the time. And you have the longest eyelashes I have ever seen. I don’t know if you can ever know how much I love you. When you have a child of your own – and I dearly hope that you will some day – then maybe you’ll understand how deeply you can love. I can’t wait to get to know you. To really learn about you as a toddler, child, teen, adult. Lily, you are full of promise and wonder and joy. My life is complete with you in it. I feel like it all makes sense, even when nothing else does. Thank you for choosing us. LOVE!

Sunday, July 27, 2003

You are five weeks old today.
Missed writing yesterday. Ah well. We went to the beach with the dog again. You slept in the sling and seemed happy. Then did some shopping and to Cousin Ben’s graduation party. Pat and Terri bought him a brand new truck. Don’t be expecting anything like that at your High School graduation… just not gonna happen! Wasn’t feeling so great when we got home so I took a bath with you wailed at Dad downstairs. We decided to bring you into the tub in hopes of calming you down a bit. Worked ok until I decided to see if babies really do have a natural instinct to hold their breath when their face hits water. You swallowed a little water and started screaming… bad Mommy. Today has been much better. You let me sleep pretty well last night and this morning, when we decided to go to breakfast at the Studio CafĂ©, we ran into your Grandpa and Grandma Gingery. So, we had a lovely time with them. Daddy has to work today; he’s loading out 1776 at the Lyceum now. You just had a nice dinner and are drifting off to sleep at my breast. Love watching you sleep… you suck in your lower lip just a little so it’s all lopsided. Very cute.

Friday, July 25, 2003

You made me cry again last night. You wouldn’t stop screaming and after almost three hours of being up with you, walking with you, rocking you, bouncing you… whatever, I finally burst into tears and took you to your daddy. He woke up, said “Oh Honey, give me the baby” and held you until you finally went to sleep and stayed asleep. Took him a while too. Gave me the opportunity to pee, calm down and become a rational human being again.

You have been sleeping most of today. We went to playgroup today at Mission Heights Park. When we arrived, there was a dog sleeping under the playground main structure, just a puppy really. I went to say hello, and while it was a friendly puppy, he was a little wary of letting me catch him. He had a collar, but no tags and before long a police officer showed up and we tried to catch the puppy together. No luck. So, I went back to sit with Teresa and Robert while the police officer played with Dario (16 months and LOVED the big guy in the uniform). Before too long, the puppy came to say hello to you and little Robert and then rolled over to have his belly scratched. I was able to get ahold of his collar (he started to bite me and then thought better of it) and I held onto his scruff until the officer could come put a lead on him. Animal control came and got him. According to a neighbor, the puppy had jumped his fence (yet again) and the owners were walking the neighborhood looking for him. The animal control officer thought it best to take him in, as they wanted to impress upon the owners the importance of properly caring for their pet. You and I got sticker police badges for our help in the “arrest”. Of course, you slept through the whole thing…

Thursday, July 24, 2003

Well, in classic one-day-is-nothing-like-the-next fashion, you have spent the whole day sleeping. We went to a resale shop in Pacific Beach and picked up a glider rocker for $40 (what a deal!), stopped off to see your Grandma at the church and then had lunch with Elizabeth and Vikki. Oh, and we picked up a new collar for Maya as she snapped hers in half last night while trying to chase a cat. Tonight we all go to Dr. Joe’s for a HypnoBirth talk. We get to talk about your birth and how HB helped us. Should be spiffy. Also put together a testimonial for Dr. Joe’s business, which I will include below.

Watching you sleep and you are so amazingly beautiful.

Wednesday, July 23, 2003

You had a rough day. Allyn headed home to Chicago after 5 weeks of caring for us and you spent the day feeling horrid and squalling. Think maybe you’re a bit gassy and feeling uncomfortable. So, you slept in fits today, waking to cry or fuss. It wasn’t until your Grandma Janis came by with dinner that you settled into a good solid sleep… much to Grandma’s dismay. She wants to play with you when she comes to visit and you are usually sleeping. I’ve explained to her that sleeping is what infants do, but she is so in love with you she can't stand watching you sleep when all she wants it to play with you! If I left her to her own devices, she’d tickle you awake and then wonder why you were grumpy. She and Steve brought us pizza (first pizza since you were born) and salad from Grandma’s garden. Oh, I learned how to embroider and have been having a blast putting fun little things on your tee shirts and onsies! I guess I’ll have to become domestic now that I am officially a stay-at-home-mom. I’ll have to figure out cooking and cleaning… ick.

Tuesday, July 22, 2003

Today you are one month old and I have been woefully negligent on keeping track of what’s going on in your life. I want you to be able to look at this and see what life was like you were a newborn. So, here’s the quick entry for today. Allyn (who has stayed with us for the last five weeks) goes home tomorrow and so we went out to dinner to say thank you and to celebrate your first month on the planet. You slept through the entire event, even while being fawned over by the waitresses and patrons at Kemosabe’s. We had a great dinner. You are bright, aware, beautiful, amazing… well, we’re just all in love with you. About 8 and a half pounds (haven’t weighed you in a while…) and 22 inches long, you are fleshing out nicely. Getting all pudgy and even more adorable. Not letting us sleep so well these days and I had one heck of a horrid headache last night, so Daddy had to take care of you. We love you.

Sunday, July 20, 2003

I meant to start this journal on the day you were born, but things get a little crazy when you bring a new baby home. Our home was full of guests, all bearing food and gifts. Thank Goddess for Allyn, keeping things clean and the guests organized. Don’t know what we’d have done without her.

Highlights from the month I missed:
You got your first chiropractic adjustment at 10 hours old.

Your grandma Heidi came down to visit during your first week and I nursed you at the Kensington Coffee Company.

You went to two forth of July parties. One at Kirsten and David’s where the acting community got a chance to see you. Then on to John and Oreet’s house where we walked up the street to his sister’s house and mixed with a large group. We left as the fireworks started (I was way to tired to stay up).

You met Box Office people at Lamb’s and staff at Mainly Mozart.

Went to the mall and generally out and about on a regular basis.

You took a trip to the dog beach (Coronado) where we walked and watched Maya romp in the surf and nursed.

You went to two weddings. One for Doug and Alora on July 19th (where I nursed you through the ceremony) and one for Rebecca and Jeff on the 20th (where I nursed you through part of the ceremony).

You were a busy baby…